I Know How This Ends
By Holly Smale
August 12, 2025
Mira Books
Hardcover
ISBN: 9780778368632
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Author Bio:
Holly Smale is the internationally bestselling, award-winning author of The Valentines teen series, and Geek Girl series which have sold 3.4 million copies worldwide. She is the co-creator, writer and exec producer of the GEEK GIRL TV show, which launches on Netflix worldwide and renewed for season 2. In January 2021, Holly was diagnosed autistic at the age of 39. Suddenly a lot of things made sense. Holly regularly shares, debates about, and celebrates neurodiversity on Twitter and Instagram @holsmale. Cassandra in Reverse is her adult debut and was named A Reese’s Book Club Pick, an Amazon Editors’ Top Pick of the Month, and a June Must Listen on Apple.
Book
Summary:
If you knew how your
life would turn out, what would you change now?
The second brilliantly uplifting and page-turning novel from the multi-million
bestselling author of Geek Girl and Reese's Book Club Pick Cassandra
in Reverse.
Margot Wayward is in manically gleeful self-destruct mode. Following the
implosion of a ten-year relationship, she’s wilfully derailing her successful
career, joyfully taking down men on dating apps, and living in total chaos.
Until one day, when Margot has a vision of herself with a man she’s never met
before. She doesn’t believe in fate. But when Margot meets single-dad Henry,
the vision comes true: exactly as she’d foreseen it.
As her future continues to reveal itself, a glimpse at a time, Margot realises
she knows exactly what’s going to happen, and when. And there’s nothing she can
do to change any of it.
So Margot has to decide how to live, how to love again, and how to be
herself… Because if you can’t change your destiny, how on earth do you live
your present?
“So, basically
you’re a Weather Girl.”
I lean back in
my chair and study the face of Date Number Fifteen. According to his online
profile, the key to John’s heart is “Cuddles and Coffee,” and he doesn’t like
“people who don’t message back— we r hear to talk!” (But not to spell,
apparently.) John enjoys “long walks on the beach,” “honesty LOL” and randomly
adding LOL to basic statements. He claims to be forty- two years old, a Gemini
(“whatever that means haha”) and
a “six-foot-
stop- asking” accountant who drinks “socially” but “never smokes” and is
looking for his “next big adventure—i s it you?”
At no point did
John say he enjoys smugly demeaning his dates, yet here we are.
“Sure.” I take
another sip of red wine. “Why not.”
“But not on
telly.” There’s a manic, slightly feverish glint in his eyes, like a light bulb
about to pop. “So not a real Weather Girl. Bet you would look very nice in one
of those perky little suits, though. Just saying.”
John winks and
takes a huge swig of his pint: fingertips stained yellow.
“I wouldn’t
know,” I say brightly. “As you say, I’m not On Telly.”
“You could be,
though.” He leans forward and I catch a strong whiff of the cigarettes he never
smokes. “You’re hot enough, Margaret. Like, an eight. Maybe. Not quite. Seven
and a half, but with the right lighting . . .”
I grin at the
waiter as he arrives with two plates of pasta.
“Thank you so
much.” Picking up my fork, I attack my tagliatelle. “Could we also please get a
side of garlic bread— make that two— a burrata with pesto and tiny tomatoes, a
Ca-prese salad, stuffed artichokes, garlic mushrooms and . . .
ooh, a bottle of your most expensive red wine? And a tiramisu, please.” John
chokes slightly on his free bread roll and I smile sweetly at him.
“How rude of
me,” I add. “Was there anything extra you wanted? Coffee, obviously. It is the
key to your heart, after all.”
Date Number
Fifteen glances at the menu, boggles slightly at the prices, then forces a
smile at the patient waiter.
“No, I’m good.”
John looks me
up and down, presumably to work out what my body will look like after £65 worth
of Italian side dishes and whether it’ll be worth the financial investment. He
says he’s an accountant; I’d imagine he’s calculating it to the penny.
“I like a girl
who isn’t afraid to eat,” he says uncertainly as I pile pasta into my mouth and
wipe carbonara sauce off my chin. “It’s very . . . sexy.”
“What a relief,
John.” I finish my wine. “You’re a true gentle-man.”
This pleases
him: he is a gentleman. Here, finally, is a woman who sees him.
“You’re a
breath of fresh air, Margaret.” He shakes his head, ruefully picking at his
ravioli. “Online dating is the worst. You would not believe the amount of
crazies I’ve met. Absolutely bonkers out there.”
“Oh no.” I tilt
my head at him. “How awful for you.”
“At least you
look mostly like your profile photos,” Date Fifteen grins at me with an errant
piece of crab stuck between his teeth, “although obviously they’re flattering—
but we all tweak now and then, don’t we?”
“We do.” I feel
my nostrils flare slightly. “Which beach do you favor for your long walks, in
this non- coastal city of Bristol?”
“Oh.” He
blinks. “I went to Weston- super- Mare last year.” “True commitment! And what’s
an average weekend like in the life of Gemini John?”
He’s starting
to look irritated now, and I think I can guess why. “You know,
just . . . normal stuff.” John rubs his finger yet again, and I
make a mental note of it: number seven.
“Wonderful.” I
beam at him. “And last weekend, specifically?”
“What is this?”
John tries to laugh, which is unfortunate because the crab is still protruding,
as if making a final doomed bid for freedom— possibly encouraged by all the
talk of beaches. “A first date or an interview?”
I glance at my
watch. “Are they not the same thing?” Just in time, the waiter arrives with my
order. I grin at him and he grins back.
“Actually.” I
put my fork down and pat my stomach. “Can we get all this to go? I want to make
sure we have enough energy for later, if you know what I mean.”
I wink at John
and his surliness evaporates like water drop-lets on a hot car bonnet.
“Ooooh, bad
girl. Straight to the point. I like it.”
“I’m thirty-six
years old,” I say calmly, wiping my mouth and watching as John rubs his finger
for the eighth time. “I haven’t been a girl for two decades. But thank you so
much for repeatedly overlooking that chronological flaw. Much in the same way
you have overlooked your own age, which I’m guessing is what— forty- seven?”
Date Number
Fifteen winces. “Like I said— we all tweak. Right?”
“Absolutely!” I
grin at him. “It makes sense to strategically alter the data to make sure you
hit a younger female demographic. What an interesting way to reject the burden
of time we all carry.”
The waiter
saves him from responding by arriving with the bill and, with a twitching
mouth, placing it in the middle of the table. I keep my hands flat and dimple
at John for a few seconds— playing a game of bill chicken— until he sighs
slightly and reaches for it. The muscles under his eyes twitch, and I watch his
internal struggle. Am I worth extra garlic mushrooms? He glances at my breasts
and decides: just. With a gallant flourish, Date Fifteen pays the whole bill,
leaving no tip.
“So.” With my
most seductive eyes, I push back my chair. “Shall we go?”
Poor John’s
face lights up with such ferocity, I almost feel guilty. Almost but not quite.
“Absolutely. My place or yours?”
I grin. “Both.”
“Um, how does
that work?”
“Well, John.” I
put a twenty- pound note on the table, stand up and grab my raincoat, handbag
and giant umbrella. “I am going to go to my house, and you are going to yours.
So that’s how it will work.”
“But— ”
“You’ve failed
this date, John. Sorry.”
“I don’t— ” He
stands up too and stares at me for a few seconds with his mouth open (crab
still present), then looks at my tip lying on the table. “Why?”
“I’m so glad
you asked.” I smile at the waiter, who is holding a paper bag. “Because you
haven’t asked me a single non- rhetorical question all evening. You have stared
at my breasts for the entire, uncomfortable hour. And not a single thing on
your profile is true, including your height.”
All five foot
ten of him bridles. “I am six foot. It’s not my fault you’re wearing bloody
heels.”
“Oh, and you’re
married.”
At this, his
face completely changes, which immediately erases the one percent uncertainty
still remaining. “What the— ”
“With
children.”
John pales.
“You’re— ”
“Crazy?” I
laugh properly for the first time this evening. “I doubt it, John. You’ve
rubbed the indent on your ring finger eight times. You also have one piece of
dried alphabet cereal stuck to the back of your jacket, along with baby spit-
up on your collar. Having assessed this data, I surmise that you have two
children. One is less than six months, the other learning to read, so I’m
guessing three or four years old. It’s an A, by the way. In case he or she is
missing a vowel.”
John— or
whatever his actual name is, I’m assuming I’ll never know now—s tarts to froth
like an overloaded washing machine. “What the hell kind of business is it of
yours if my wife and I are— ”
“Except your
phone has pinged six times this evening and you checked it as soon as I went to
the bathroom. So I’m guessing you are currently ‘stuck at work,’ sad- face
emoji. Don’t feel too bad. Statistically, thirty percent of people using online
dating apps are secretly married, so it’s not just you. You’re just shockingly
bad at covering it up.”
Suffice to say,
John isn’t LOL-ing anymore. It’s a good thing this little Italian restaurant in
Clifton is so quiet on a Monday, because I think now he’s really “hear to
talk.”
“So, you knew
you weren’t interested and just let me pay for dinner anyway?”
“Yes.” I pick
up my takeout bag. “Thank you. Much appreciated.” I hold up the bottle of wine
to the waiter, along with the previous glass I’d already poured. “I’ll bring
this back next Monday, OK? Washed, obviously.”
The waiter
laughs. “Gotcha.”
I glance out of
the window— yup, just as expected— and sling my raincoat on. John told me when
we met that my raincoat and umbrella were “overkill in August,” but I’ve been
watching the cumulonimbus clouds gather all afternoon. The sky doesn’t lie,
unlike the majority of my online dates. As I walk toward the front door, I can
feel John crackling behind me, the way you feel electricity in the air just
before a thunderstorm.
“By the way,” I
say, holding up the bottle of wine, before he can start yelling. “My name is
Margot. And I’m not a ‘Weather Girl.’ I’m a bloody meteorologist.”
Then I open my
umbrella just as the first few drops begin to fall.
And walk
straight into the rain.
Excerpted from I KNOW HOW THIS ENDS. Copyright © 2025 by Holly Smale. Published by MIRA, an imprint of HTP/HarperCollins.
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